I miss you

how are you doing? i'm feeling better. i got all A's in school. I miss wreseling with you. love dylan

Don Juan's ain't got nothing on me!!!!!

Yes, I did make tacos tonight, and damn were they scrumptuous!!!! :)
I had a crazy day today. Mrs. Chandler was in and out, so I couldn't be too close to my phone. I swear she has a cell phone radar. It is pathetic. I am sorry that I couldn't respond much to your emails. I feel so bad about that. But I got every one of yours, and they all made me smile. There is some crazy shit going on at work, and Shane is coming out tomorrow morning. Can't wait. (being so f***ing sarcastic right now)I have basketball practice tomorrow night. I had to work late today, so hopefully I will get to go and work out tomorrow. It was almost 60 degrees out tonight. Felt very nice. It is so crazy how much you are on my mind every day. I think constantly about when you get back, and how our life is going to be. I can't wait for you to come home for good. I know I have a long time to wait, but every day is sooner than the one before. I am hoping to go to sleep early tonight. I haven't been sleeping too well lately. But that is nothing new. I love you so much and miss you more and more each day. You are my heart, and what I want to be my future. Muah!

MUAH!!!!!!!!!!! XOXOXOXOXO!!!!!!!!!!!!

Just wanted to let you know I am loving you and missing you as always!!! Hope you slept well! LOVE YOU MORE!!!!

Ugh, gotta go back to work tomorrow. :(

Hey baby,
Well, I hope you had sweet dreams and that you got rested up. I am praying that your day is better than the last. I dread going back to work tomorrow. I hate that place. I know I won't sleep at all tonight and will toss and turn about the dread I feel. But I gotta do it. Bills have to be paid..:) I hope you aren't too upset at me for what I got Skylar. I think he will like what I get him. I added it up and it would have been around $140 if I would have gotten him the bat, glove, balls, and a baseball hat. And if you are upset, I understand. I just did what I thought was more reasonable for a 7 year old's birthday. If Amanda has something stupid to say about it, just blame it on me. I don't care what she thinks about me. But I do care how you feel, so I am sorry if I disappointed you. :( I love you with every beat of my heart and can't wait to see you again. It is going to be a long time, but each passing day is one day closer to having you in my arms. I am really hoping the next 6 months goes by quickly. If not, then I will deal with that as well. I think we could have it good when you get back. I am more grown up and ready to deal with outside factors. I hope you are too. I don't want to lose you again, ever. Well, I am about to go to bed. I love you and miss you more than you know. (well, you may know, because you are in this with me) Say a prayer that my tomorrow goes well. Muah!

Happy New Years to you!!!!!

Here's wishing you a very happy new year!!!! I wish you could be home to celebrate with me, but just know that I am thinking about you. At least I can say that I will see you in this new year!!! :) And that makes me very happy! Hopefully this time next year, we will be beginning anew, together. I see really good things happening to both of us in the next few years! So that means you better stay safe over there so you don't make a liar out of me...lol....I love you with all my heart and soul! Muah!

The new me!! :)

Hi baby! Here is my new haircut! I really like it. I can't wait to style it tomorrow. Love you so much and I miss you!!!! Muah!!! :)

MERRY CHRISTMAS

I am hoping you have a wonderful Christmas baby! I know it is going to be hard being away from home, but just remember you have so many people that love you and are rooting for you. And there is always me, your #1 supporter and fan!! :) I love you so much and wish you were here. Next year we will be together, and the reason for this blog will be a memory. Hugs and kisses from me to you! MUAH!!! :)

I MISS YOU BUNCHES AND BUNCHES!!!!!!!!!!! AND I LOVE YOU EVEN MORE!!!!!!!!!!!

Awww.........:)

I close my eyes and I smile
Knowing that everything is alright
To the core
So close that door
Is this happening?

My breath is on your hair
I'm unaware
That you opened the blinds and let the city in
God, you held my hand
And we stand
Just taking in everything.

And I knew it from the start
So my arms are open wide
Your head is on my stomach
And we're, we're trying so hard not to fall asleep
But Here we are
On this 18th floor balcony...
We're both flying away.

So we talked about mom's and dad's
About family pasts
Just getting to know where we came from
Our hearts were on display
For all to see
I can't believe this is happening to me and,
I raised my hands as if to show you that I was yours
That I was so yours for the taking
I'm so yours for the taking and
That's when I felt the wind pick up
I grabbed the rail while choking up
These words to say and then you kissed me... here

And I knew it from the start
So My arms are open wide
Your head is on my stomach
And we're, we're trying so hard not to fall asleep
But Here we are
On this 18th floor balcony...
We're both flying away

I'll try to sleep
To keep you in my dreams
'Till I can bring you home with me
I'll try to sleep
And when I do I'll keep you in my... dreams

And I knew it from the start
So my arms are open wide
And your head is on my stomach
And we're, we're trying so hard not to fall asleep
So here we are
On this 18th floor balcony.....

I LOVE YOU AND MISS YOU!!!! CAN'T WAIT TO SEE YOU AGAIN AND KISS AND LOVE ON YOU!!!!

What a day!!! (I think for both of us...)

Wow! What a day!!! I never thought it would end. I woke up late for starters. Got to work finally. All day long the kids were asses. They are adjusting for Christmas break a few days early I assume. I didn't take my xanax until noon, so my nerves were shot by 8:30. It was so crazy! I totally forgot to do my timesheet, those damn purchase requests had to be done by the time I left today. Tara and I couldn't figure them out, so it was that much more stressful! I have never been so stressed over a stupid Christmas program as I am right now! We finally got them done, but who knows if they are right! lol...The potluck we had was nice....I actually got to bring home most of the potatoes I made because another teacher made a big ass pot of them at school. (but everyone that ate mine said they were the best) :) I didn't get to work out again today because I got home too late. My sister is stressing me out about Christmas Eve with my dad again, but I think my dad and I finally got it figured out (this coming Monday) and Dylan's dad is okay with bringing him down so we can celebrate Christmas Eve with my dad and stepmom early. Hopefully my sister won't change her plans....(which is very well possible) Well, I am talking to you right now on the phone, so I guess I will end this here. I love you so much and miss you even more. I hope you have sweet dreams. Muah!!!

It may take a while...but it will get here.

It may seem really far away, but the finish line will be seen in the distance before you and I know it. I know we can do this. We have to believe in each other and work on our issues while we can. That way we can spend time when you get home being normal and not so "screwed up" like we were last time. I know you are really stressed out. I hate it for you. I really hope things start letting up for you sometime soon. I hate knowing that you are feeling like you are. Don't worry about me here. I will be fine. I have been through this before. My life will not stop. I will continue working and being Dylan's mom. I will (as I already do) miss you like crazy, but what can I do....nothing. I can just count down the days until you get home. Hopefully, after you get back, this going off for a year shit will stop. I love you and hope you have a good night. You know I am not feeling well, but if it continues I will go to the doctor next week. I know what they will want to do...an MRI. I can't afford it and that is why I think it will be a wasted trip to the doctor. But I will. With my health history, headaches and dizziness, along with confusion is never a good sign. Have a good night. Miss you.

BRRRRRRRRRRRRRR...................

It is soooo cold outside!!! But in just a few short months, we will hopefully be able to enjoy this (see above picture)!!! :) I love you so much and miss you more each minute of each day. It hasn't been but 5 days since I have seen you, but it seems like forever already. I know you are a little down tonight, but hopefully you can cheer up soon. And as for my motivation, it is to be happier and healthier for when you get home. That way I can be myself again, and we can build on a beautiful, lasting relationship. So, if you can find that same motivation, then I think we will be good. Just remember how good working out makes you feel about yourself. I bet when you get overseas you will have time to start working out again. And if they don't give you that time, make it for yourself. I love you and think about you often. Muah!!! :)

Snow without me??? Not even the same......

I can't believe you get to see snow without me...:( that makes me sad. But here is what I would do if I was there with you....enjoy the beautiful snow, and think about me......xoxoxoxo......

Boo-Hoo....:(

I miss you already. You are getting closer to your destination, but I just want you back here. Today was horrible. The kids at school were assholes, and I could have just walked out and took a personal day and wouldn't have looked back. I wish last night did not have to end. It hit me this morning when I woke up I won't see you again for a very long time. I just wonder why it didn't hit me until then. Maybe that was God's way of making it easier on you and I last night. We were able to enjoy a great day and be with each other, without sadness, but more laughter and smiles to give to each other. I love you so much, and hope you are getting a little sleep on the bus. I hope tomorrow is a lot better for me. Today might have sucked, but it is over now, and all I can wish for is a better Friday. Miss you tons, and wish I could give you a kiss and be in your arms right now.....but I can't, so I guess I will do notes. Yuck. Muah.