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I am so sorry that you have felt isolated. I am really trying my best. It has been a very scary week for me. I hope you know that I appreciate your concern for me. I know it has to be hard to be halfway around the world and not really knowing what is going on with me. I don't want you to spend you time worrying about me, but I know you will. That is how love goes. I am scared, and I have had my wake up call. I told Dr. Baltz that I don't drink, do drugs, or party. I take my medicine like I am supposed to and just lead a normal life, being a good mom and trying to make money to support me and Dylan. I guess I just stress myself out with out really knowing it. So that has to stop, or things can get bad. This week has been my wake up call. It is really crazy how the body tells you things. I don't want to feel this way ever again. I hope my stroke symptoms subside soon. It is a terrible, incredibly uncomfortable feeling. I just have to accept I am a sick person, who has a blood disorder that can strike without me knowing it and without warning. It is like I try to do my best to control it, and it backfires on me. I miss you and wish you could be here while I am going through it. I am very lucky to have a wonderful family who has been here with me every step of the way this week. And I am very lucky to have you who sends his concerns across the miles. I am sorry again, and know I don't mean to leave you out. I am trying my best. Please believe that.