Happy Valentines Day!!!

I LOVE YOU!!!!! Maybe we can't be together today, but hopefully we can make up for it this summer!!! (you know what I mean???) lol....Seriously, it is not just this day that I am thanking God you are back in my life and my heart is filled with love for it, it is everyday. Dylan asked me today who my Valentine was, and before I could say anything, he said,"I am just kidding. I know it is definitely Kevin!" He is so right. I love you so much and miss you every minute of every day. I knew I was signing up for this deployment with you in a way. And even though I hate it with a passion, I know someday soon we will be together with no disruptions like we are now. You have my heart and I know I have yours. Have a wonderful day! Muah!!!

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I am so sorry that you have felt isolated. I am really trying my best. It has been a very scary week for me. I hope you know that I appreciate your concern for me. I know it has to be hard to be halfway around the world and not really knowing what is going on with me. I don't want you to spend you time worrying about me, but I know you will. That is how love goes. I am scared, and I have had my wake up call. I told Dr. Baltz that I don't drink, do drugs, or party. I take my medicine like I am supposed to and just lead a normal life, being a good mom and trying to make money to support me and Dylan. I guess I just stress myself out with out really knowing it. So that has to stop, or things can get bad. This week has been my wake up call. It is really crazy how the body tells you things. I don't want to feel this way ever again. I hope my stroke symptoms subside soon. It is a terrible, incredibly uncomfortable feeling. I just have to accept I am a sick person, who has a blood disorder that can strike without me knowing it and without warning. It is like I try to do my best to control it, and it backfires on me. I miss you and wish you could be here while I am going through it. I am very lucky to have a wonderful family who has been here with me every step of the way this week. And I am very lucky to have you who sends his concerns across the miles. I am sorry again, and know I don't mean to leave you out. I am trying my best. Please believe that.

Before I got so sick...

Well, this picture was taken on Sunday, before I got sick. Now, my skin color is so pale. :( I still feel really shaky, and numb. Just not a good time for me right now. I slept for a long time today. I tried to do some notes, but my hands just aren't cooperating. It is taking me a pretty long time to type this right now. I called Shane and said I wouldn't be in tomorrow. Feeling pretty weak and still have a killer headache. I am going to see Dr. Baltz Thursday. I hope he can tell me something, because the stupid people at the ER didn't. I hope he will refer me to a headache specialist. Something has to give. I am so tired of feeling like this. It has been four days of hell for me. I hope you have a nice day. I miss you and love you.